I re post the letter from BYJ. This is the translation from Suehan. Thanks Suehan very much to make us keep closer with YJ. Don't get angry for re posting.
You can click here to see the full page at BYJ with all comments from YJ's sisters (Talk box - No 51347).
Original in Korean : Bae Yong Joon/ KOB
Translated into English : Suehan
Wow!! I think it’s the first time I have seen his posting since I became his fan in Jan of 2005.
He posted two letters on #51346 and #51347. But I believe he did that because he couldn’t post his letter one time. (You’ll know the reason from his post scrip of the end of 2nd posting.)
So I translated the two postings into one.
Suehan
Hello, Family. This is Bae Yong Joon.
Today’s weather isn’t so good, but there was a refreshing breeze for us all. On the other hand, I am thinking that there will be a change in the weather with the rain showers and wind that have come. The rate that time is flying by makes me feel like I’m in a rush to get everything done. Because there is so much I have planned in my head while I have been taking breaks. That is why I am taking the time to first write to you all and send this letter to the Family.
First of all, I am sorry to have made you all worry. The surgery went well without any problems. After getting good results from staying in the hospital for a couple of days, I am already recovering quickly enough to be in front of the computer to write this letter to you all. I would like to give thanks to all of you for your support, and promise to not make you all worry like this again in the future. You must all stay healthy and well, too.
Out of all the things that I hope to do in the future, there is one idea that I would like to discuss with all of you.
A while ago, I mentioned that I wanted to write a book to introduce Korea. Do you all remember that? Although I love photographs, I have also had this desire to present the beauty(s) of Korea for a long time.
Therefore, from the love and support from the Asian family, I have seen the interest many families have shown about Korea. And everyone has made visits to the country, too. At some point I started to regret that you have to come and visit the shooting site, which due to little information were limited to see only that part of Korea.
And even from those it was not enough for you to see all of Korea during your trip, making you have to come back again later. I wanted to catch the attention of you all and tourists, by revealing the charm of the country that is Korea. And this is what I want to say.
“Even to those of us who have lived in Korea, the culture, history and beauty of the country have embraced and surprised us. Please use your camera to capture the beauty of every little place. This is the Korea that I was born and grew up in. It is the Korea that I have been trying to reveal through my drama and movie shootings.” Is what I am trying to say.
And that made me think how it would be if I were the first to pick up my camera and travel around the country, introducing a book filled with pictures that at least communicate some of the beauty that Korea has to offer.
But this isn’t where my thoughts and worries stop. While thinking about the route(s) of my travels would lead me, I only know of the few, famous places that I have been before. There must be places that are just as beautiful that I simply have not heard of yet… And I haven’t been able to look for help in any other useful places.
But then, the Family is what came to my thoughts! I realized that we could make this book together, not with my own efforts.
What do you think? Are there any places you can tell me about?
Please let me know of all the places that you all have traveled throughout Korea. Writing, pictures, any information you can give me is fine. Even a small table in a shabby, country restaurant will be accepted too. Mountains you do not know the names of that you have seen in the background while parking your car in the sunset are also good. Exciting stories at a famous getaway is great, too. Those who have lived their entire lives in Korea, an encounter you’ve had that made you realize your appreciation for the country is good, too.
You have anything that you want to know about Korea? That is great, too. Tell me where in Korea you’re curious about, where you want to go and visit, what you want to try and eat… whatever your heart desires to ask.
I will try my best to create a good book using all the things that you all have to contribute to me.
I hope that everyone who reads this book and is interested in Korea including our families abroad would like to stay for a longer time in Korea.
My pen and pad and camera are ready. I will start my travels as soon as I receive all of your stories. For now, email your letters to webmaster@byj.co.kr. Soon, I will create a place where I can store, and listen to, all the stories you send me.
I feel much lighter now that I have expressed the thoughts that I have had for the past few weeks to you all. Now, I will just wait excitedly for all your stories. I will definitely be studying hard.
Please always stay well and healthy.
I love you all.
At the dawn of August 19th, 2008
Sincerely,
Bae Yong Joon
P.S.
I got a small scare when the post didn’t show up all at once.
I forgot there was a limit on the length of the posting.
I hope it doesn’t make your reading difficult.
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
How to stay young
A friend sent me ways to keep you young longer...
I find they really nice and worth following. Enjoy!
HOW TO STAY YOUNG
1. Throw out nonessential numbers. This includes age, weight and height. Let the doctors worry about them. That is why you pay 'them.'
2. Keep only cheerful friends. The grouches pull you down.
3. Keep learning. Learn more about the computer, crafts, gardening, whatever, even ham radio. Never let the brain idle. 'An idle mind is the devil's workshop.' And the devil's name is Alzheimer's.
4. Enjoy the simple things.
5. Laugh often, long and loud. Laugh until you gasp for breath.
6. The tears happen. Endure, grieve, and move on. The only person, who is with us our entire life, is ourselves. Be ALIVE while you are alive.
7. Surround yourself with what you love , whether it's family, pets, keepsakes, music, plants, hobbies, whatever. Your home is your refuge.
8. Cherish your health: If it is good, preserve it. If it is unstable, improve it. If it is beyond what you can improve, get help.
9. Don't take guilt trips. Take a trip to the mall, even to the next county; to a foreign country but NOT to where the guilt is.
10. Tell the people you love that you love them , at every opportunity.
AND ALWAYS REMEMBER
Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away
I find they really nice and worth following. Enjoy!
HOW TO STAY YOUNG
1. Throw out nonessential numbers. This includes age, weight and height. Let the doctors worry about them. That is why you pay 'them.'
2. Keep only cheerful friends. The grouches pull you down.
3. Keep learning. Learn more about the computer, crafts, gardening, whatever, even ham radio. Never let the brain idle. 'An idle mind is the devil's workshop.' And the devil's name is Alzheimer's.
4. Enjoy the simple things.
5. Laugh often, long and loud. Laugh until you gasp for breath.
6. The tears happen. Endure, grieve, and move on. The only person, who is with us our entire life, is ourselves. Be ALIVE while you are alive.
7. Surround yourself with what you love , whether it's family, pets, keepsakes, music, plants, hobbies, whatever. Your home is your refuge.
8. Cherish your health: If it is good, preserve it. If it is unstable, improve it. If it is beyond what you can improve, get help.
9. Don't take guilt trips. Take a trip to the mall, even to the next county; to a foreign country but NOT to where the guilt is.
10. Tell the people you love that you love them , at every opportunity.
AND ALWAYS REMEMBER
Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away
Sunday, August 17, 2008
Life is uncertainty!
Yesterday I have my hair cut and something stirred up my mind and soul!
The one taking care my hair is a hair stylist, quite famous in his entertainment industry. He is good looking and sound at his middle age and as other stylists, he always showed up to people a well performance.
I met an old man, weak, skinny and pale at his salon, the man looked like my hair stylist but much older than him, I thought, may be his elder brother.
Then later I find the old skinny pale man is him! How he could be! Just about lesser than 3 months I had not seen him, my God!
He has a serious sick related to his brain and he had 2 month treatment in hospital then recently another 1 week treatment again. Now he is in his recovering stage, but he looks like a 60 year old man with his pale, brown spots on his skin, his eyes lost his lively look although he can cut our hairs, till at his professional. He even changed my hair style and made me look better with it.
I know the case that one man just died in a day without any signals, he felt hard to breath, sent to hospital and died on the same day. But this time I am really shock to see my hair stylist and his case touch my heart. How this life is uncertainty! You try too much for your life then suddenly, something happens and everything becomes meaningless to you, then what you can do?
I must re think what we really need to this life and then just do for it. I must be happy with what I till have today since I may lose anything or everything tomorrow. I must re set my life target and re schedule my time.
LIFE.. too beautiful and too terrible! LIFE gives you signals to remind you for a happier choice you can make. Then I have my choice now, and you, what is your choice ???
The one taking care my hair is a hair stylist, quite famous in his entertainment industry. He is good looking and sound at his middle age and as other stylists, he always showed up to people a well performance.
I met an old man, weak, skinny and pale at his salon, the man looked like my hair stylist but much older than him, I thought, may be his elder brother.
Then later I find the old skinny pale man is him! How he could be! Just about lesser than 3 months I had not seen him, my God!
He has a serious sick related to his brain and he had 2 month treatment in hospital then recently another 1 week treatment again. Now he is in his recovering stage, but he looks like a 60 year old man with his pale, brown spots on his skin, his eyes lost his lively look although he can cut our hairs, till at his professional. He even changed my hair style and made me look better with it.
I know the case that one man just died in a day without any signals, he felt hard to breath, sent to hospital and died on the same day. But this time I am really shock to see my hair stylist and his case touch my heart. How this life is uncertainty! You try too much for your life then suddenly, something happens and everything becomes meaningless to you, then what you can do?
I must re think what we really need to this life and then just do for it. I must be happy with what I till have today since I may lose anything or everything tomorrow. I must re set my life target and re schedule my time.
LIFE.. too beautiful and too terrible! LIFE gives you signals to remind you for a happier choice you can make. Then I have my choice now, and you, what is your choice ???
Friday, August 15, 2008
When we can see you again, YJ?
Some more photos from April Snow.
The show really impressed me. Insoo's sorrow tears my heart.
You see how perfect his sweet face in the scene.
YJ, when I can see your new works?
The show really impressed me. Insoo's sorrow tears my heart.
You see how perfect his sweet face in the scene.
YJ, when I can see your new works?
Dear YJ, get better soon!
Repost the message on BYJ last 11 Aug, 08
I heard you had a surgery for about 2 hours, under general anesthesia to treat damaged muscles and nerves in shoulder. How are u? Are u painful? Hope that you have your close friends or your love with you during these days.
i always imagine how, what i could do if I was with you, YJ.
It should be sweet thoughts to think about.
Special in this time, you may need more caring of others, then what i could do if i was with you?
Dear YJ's sisters, I think most of us sharing the same feeling. We wish to do something for YJ, but we can not, so just imagine, if we could do...
Dear YJ, we all love you and all helpless in releasing pain from you.
So .... only can say take care and wish you get better soonest with all love from us.
With deeply love.
I heard you had a surgery for about 2 hours, under general anesthesia to treat damaged muscles and nerves in shoulder. How are u? Are u painful? Hope that you have your close friends or your love with you during these days.
i always imagine how, what i could do if I was with you, YJ.
It should be sweet thoughts to think about.
Special in this time, you may need more caring of others, then what i could do if i was with you?
Dear YJ's sisters, I think most of us sharing the same feeling. We wish to do something for YJ, but we can not, so just imagine, if we could do...
Dear YJ, we all love you and all helpless in releasing pain from you.
So .... only can say take care and wish you get better soonest with all love from us.
With deeply love.
Very dear BYJ, Why dont you look at us?
Repost my message on BYJ on 6 Aug
Very Dear Yong Joon,
How are you ? I heard that you are back Korea... I have been waiting for your new performance long, long....
I think you are going to publish some new photos, and maybe with your new hair style.
I 've heard many sisters crying for your long hair cutting. Yes, you look sweet and very, very charming with the hairstyle. But that style is for a period of your time, your performance.
For me, your brilliancy and charm is not just because of your hair and glasses. You are gorgeous with glasses and yet I love to see you without glasses then I can see your eyes, glances.
Now I am eager to see your new hair style...
One thing, could you do for us, could you look at the camera when taking photos. With this way we can feel like you are looking at us when seeing your photos. Most of your photos are not looking to cameras, we can not catch your eyes, your glances.
Thanks for all wonderful feeling you have given to us through your works.
All the best to you.
Always love you.
Very Dear Yong Joon,
How are you ? I heard that you are back Korea... I have been waiting for your new performance long, long....
I think you are going to publish some new photos, and maybe with your new hair style.
I 've heard many sisters crying for your long hair cutting. Yes, you look sweet and very, very charming with the hairstyle. But that style is for a period of your time, your performance.
For me, your brilliancy and charm is not just because of your hair and glasses. You are gorgeous with glasses and yet I love to see you without glasses then I can see your eyes, glances.
Now I am eager to see your new hair style...
One thing, could you do for us, could you look at the camera when taking photos. With this way we can feel like you are looking at us when seeing your photos. Most of your photos are not looking to cameras, we can not catch your eyes, your glances.
Thanks for all wonderful feeling you have given to us through your works.
All the best to you.
Always love you.
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
How much is not too much?
How much you are expecting to your lover?
How much is just good enough to please the one but not disturb him?
How much is not too much?
I have the such questions from one of my friend.
I did answer to her that we must find the way to please ourselves.
Loving someone is not easy. We love then we become very demanding, of course just with the one, then we have high expectation. We expect the one should be, should do, understand, ... like this, like that, etc. more than other ones.
Unfortunately, the one we love is normal person, not a hero and very intelligent one. Even he /she is, he/she can not too smart to understand everything from every moment.
So how much is good? Good for feel being love and take care by the lover?
I suggest if we can, we could not expect. Let love devote to you what it can give.
You love and being love, just please yourself. Not from other, then you will be happy.
How much is just good enough to please the one but not disturb him?
How much is not too much?
I have the such questions from one of my friend.
I did answer to her that we must find the way to please ourselves.
Loving someone is not easy. We love then we become very demanding, of course just with the one, then we have high expectation. We expect the one should be, should do, understand, ... like this, like that, etc. more than other ones.
Unfortunately, the one we love is normal person, not a hero and very intelligent one. Even he /she is, he/she can not too smart to understand everything from every moment.
So how much is good? Good for feel being love and take care by the lover?
I suggest if we can, we could not expect. Let love devote to you what it can give.
You love and being love, just please yourself. Not from other, then you will be happy.
Saturday, August 2, 2008
What you can do...
When you have to leave someone you love, what can you do?
I feel really sad but what we can do...
Time flies fast and things keep changing.
If you miss someone then what can you do?
If you wish to touch or calling someone who is not with you any more, what can you do?
If you want to do something for the one you love, since he is too far from you so you can not do anything but just hearing all info from him, what can you do?
If you love someone, once you think of him, you feel the love you devote to him overflow your soul and at the same time a pain sharp as knife go through your heart, then what can you do?
If you know you are loosing the one you love then what can you do?
One day you most not expected, you have to leave someone you love, what you can do...
is just comfort yourself with the thinking that even the one may not be with you anymore, but the love till with you to the day you wish to.
By this way, LOVE is with you, forever... not cultivated by anyone influence.
on the days for Di's leaving.
I feel really sad but what we can do...
Time flies fast and things keep changing.
If you miss someone then what can you do?
If you wish to touch or calling someone who is not with you any more, what can you do?
If you want to do something for the one you love, since he is too far from you so you can not do anything but just hearing all info from him, what can you do?
If you love someone, once you think of him, you feel the love you devote to him overflow your soul and at the same time a pain sharp as knife go through your heart, then what can you do?
If you know you are loosing the one you love then what can you do?
One day you most not expected, you have to leave someone you love, what you can do...
is just comfort yourself with the thinking that even the one may not be with you anymore, but the love till with you to the day you wish to.
By this way, LOVE is with you, forever... not cultivated by anyone influence.
on the days for Di's leaving.
Friday, July 25, 2008
Today is a special day.
I feel very disappointed with my plans broken. Many things just flowed out of my hand. I feel empty badly and at the same time I met friends and encouraged them.
Anyhow, I am not alone, everyone has his/her pain... like me, right now... Something I thought I have has gone. Time, share, love, do I really had had and now gone? Or I just thought I have?
I know how to control my sadness and yet till have bad times.
I lost one of my value on this life, how sad I am now, he is leaving me. That is life, right? You can not hold anything, even the one you love most.
So, then what will come next, I have to find ways to balance myself
I feel very disappointed with my plans broken. Many things just flowed out of my hand. I feel empty badly and at the same time I met friends and encouraged them.
Anyhow, I am not alone, everyone has his/her pain... like me, right now... Something I thought I have has gone. Time, share, love, do I really had had and now gone? Or I just thought I have?
I know how to control my sadness and yet till have bad times.
I lost one of my value on this life, how sad I am now, he is leaving me. That is life, right? You can not hold anything, even the one you love most.
So, then what will come next, I have to find ways to balance myself
Day by day, all the things seem not very favor to me.
Always the loneliness, no one at my side to fight for this life. I feel lonely at any moment.
Things just are out of my control, what I can do? Even time, I have not enough to do what i really wish to do for my sake.
Only want to run away, life is not too harsh for me but the loneliness.
No one can share with me, I looking for someone can be with me at my downest time like this, understanding the situation, share my concerns and love, give me some guideline to get our of the difficulties. I have to stand alone from years to years, becoming more bad temper day by day. How can I control all these such things?
You are too far for me, but at least I have known you, that is one of roses from this life offered to me. Thanks. Thanks you for existence, I love you even in what way you perform. Your image is courage me in bad days.
Always the loneliness, no one at my side to fight for this life. I feel lonely at any moment.
Things just are out of my control, what I can do? Even time, I have not enough to do what i really wish to do for my sake.
Only want to run away, life is not too harsh for me but the loneliness.
No one can share with me, I looking for someone can be with me at my downest time like this, understanding the situation, share my concerns and love, give me some guideline to get our of the difficulties. I have to stand alone from years to years, becoming more bad temper day by day. How can I control all these such things?
You are too far for me, but at least I have known you, that is one of roses from this life offered to me. Thanks. Thanks you for existence, I love you even in what way you perform. Your image is courage me in bad days.
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
I am till in bad mood and do not know how to overcome this situation.
Too much worry and worst with the loneliness.
Someone in heart can not save you from all difficulties. He is just stay there, in your heart and will talk to you once you go back with him. When you need fighting, he may give you encouragement and brave but not fulfill your loneliness.
I want to cry, but nobody give me shoulders to lean on.
I have to fight, alone in the inexorable battles.
Only want to run away then hide myself in my own comfortable zone, where I can do what i prefer to do. I have a lot of interesting things to do, but not this battles.
Who can be here with me, besides me right now?
No one, no anyone...
Sunday, July 13, 2008
Có phải là tình yêu?
Bạn có tự tin vượt qua khoảng cách thời gian không?
Bao lâu sẽ làm bạn e ngại, năm năm hay mười năm?
Thật ra khoảng cách thời gian chỉ là một trong những thử thách của tình ỵêu mà thôi.
Bao lâu sẽ làm bạn e ngại, năm năm hay mười năm?
Thật ra khoảng cách thời gian chỉ là một trong những thử thách của tình ỵêu mà thôi.
Saturday, July 12, 2008
Loneliness is always with you in the times you never expect.
Life is fighting, for all you love, and you have to fight, alone.
...
Khi em cần một bàn tay đã không có ai bên cạnh
Thế giới vẫn đông đầy sao vẫn hoài không đủ ???
Hình bóng trong tim liệu có đủ đầy như vẫn ngỡ
Gánh nặng cuộc đời như không thể chịu đựng nổi
Có thể hạnh phúc chăng chỉ chung một bầu trời ?
Có thể bình an chăng khi em đang lạc lối ?
Sông trăng rực rỡ của những ngày thơ dại
Chỉ còn nỗi đau tình đầu tan như sóng
Đêm mùa đông ngọt ngào hương yêu xa xứ
Như bàn tay che không đủ ấm cuộc đời
Nắng vẫn lên… nụ cười vẫn nở…
Ngày mai, ngày mai của em, có em
Vẫn trong đời ấy, dù thiếu mãi một bàn tay
KN Napoli, 13 tháng 5, 2008
Life is fighting, for all you love, and you have to fight, alone.
...
Khi em cần một bàn tay đã không có ai bên cạnh
Thế giới vẫn đông đầy sao vẫn hoài không đủ ???
Hình bóng trong tim liệu có đủ đầy như vẫn ngỡ
Gánh nặng cuộc đời như không thể chịu đựng nổi
Có thể hạnh phúc chăng chỉ chung một bầu trời ?
Có thể bình an chăng khi em đang lạc lối ?
Sông trăng rực rỡ của những ngày thơ dại
Chỉ còn nỗi đau tình đầu tan như sóng
Đêm mùa đông ngọt ngào hương yêu xa xứ
Như bàn tay che không đủ ấm cuộc đời
Nắng vẫn lên… nụ cười vẫn nở…
Ngày mai, ngày mai của em, có em
Vẫn trong đời ấy, dù thiếu mãi một bàn tay
KN Napoli, 13 tháng 5, 2008
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
YJ,
I am in bad feeling and just want to share with u here, on my blog.
I know all of us sometime in very bad situation and regardless how hard the time, we have to overcome by our own.
I read your notes and I know you also spent very harsh periods. I wished to share with you that feeling since I know it is always tough and yet even you have a lot of families, you have to pass it alone!
Me too, now! I have a lot of supportive relation but I till have to face with issues nearly lonely.
Now and then, I wish I can run away from this life which is so beautiful and also so tough! What we can do when you exist on this earth not only for you.
I know deeply that you experience the feeling better than anyone since you have a lot of people look at you, believe in you, waiting for you to present to them all the perfect performance and the worst is they love you deeply.
Since you can not fail, you have only one way, go ahead in the perfect way, whatever. I love you by tasting the feeling you have, too.
How a person can bear with the such pressure!
YJ, pls give me a look with sympathy and encouragement. I need that more than whatever things on this life now!
Wish that I can overcome the situation.
Always love you.
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
May 2003 - a flash of life
An old feeling.
Chưa bao gio mình mỏi mệt đến như vậy.
Cuộc đời là cõi tạm ư mà sao ta đớn đau đến thế. Cái cảm giác luôn như không thể nào chịu đựng nổi vẫn đeo bám ngày này qua ngày khác, mà ta vẫn tồn tại.
Mỗi ngày với công việc mỗi nặng nề hơn mà ta có gì để bù đắp ?
Luôn là nỗi cô đơn khủng khiếp đó, nó luôn hiện hữu dù ta có chấp nhận hay không. Luôn trốn tránh, tìm vui bằng những bong bóng đủ màu mình tự tô vẽ, để một lúc nào đó, nỗi cô đon ấy gần như đánh gục mình hoàn toàn.
Có ai trong cuộc đời này cho mình có thể chia sẻ những điều ấy ?
Cái mà ta cần là gì, tình yêu, cái mà thiêng liêng nhất cũng đã bó tay,
Cảm giác muốn trốn chạy luôn ám ảnh bởi mang nặng nỗi cô đơn ấy với một tương lai mịt mờ cùng bao bất trắc, thì có còn chi là vui thú cuộ c đời !
Trái tim chật vật đập những nhịp nặng nề mỗi sáng trưa chiều tối. Làm sao mình chịu đựng nỗi.
Cảm giác ngọn dao ấy đâm thẳng vào tim, mình thật lòng ước mong không có bất kỳ ai trên cuộc đời này trải qua cái cảm giác đó !
Môi vẫn cười, mặt vẫn rạng rỡ, mình luôn ngưỡng mộ mình quá đỗi cho khả năng che dấu niềm đau, nhưng mình sẽ chịu đựng bao lâu nữa. Mình rất muốn đầu hàng bởi chịu đựng cuộc sống ngày đối với mình gần như là quá sức.
Mình chưa từng chịu những cảm giác như vậy, mình mong rằng đó đã là tận cùng để mình còn có thể ước mong rằng thời gian này sẽ qua, rằng mình sẽ chịu đựng nổi.
Mình sẽ không thay đổi con nguời của mình, dù bản ngã ấy làm mình khốn khổ.
Chỉ có một niềm vui được dâng hiến là còn giữ mình tồn tại. Dâng hiến cho những người mình yêu thương và chỉ có thế.
Mong mình sẽ có thêm sức lực để qua nốt đoạn đường chông gai này.
Mình là một người dũng cảm và đầy nghị lực, không gì có thể đánh gục mình , trừ phi mình bỏ cuộc. Trừ phi mình bỏ cuộc !
Chưa bao gio mình mỏi mệt đến như vậy.
Cuộc đời là cõi tạm ư mà sao ta đớn đau đến thế. Cái cảm giác luôn như không thể nào chịu đựng nổi vẫn đeo bám ngày này qua ngày khác, mà ta vẫn tồn tại.
Mỗi ngày với công việc mỗi nặng nề hơn mà ta có gì để bù đắp ?
Luôn là nỗi cô đơn khủng khiếp đó, nó luôn hiện hữu dù ta có chấp nhận hay không. Luôn trốn tránh, tìm vui bằng những bong bóng đủ màu mình tự tô vẽ, để một lúc nào đó, nỗi cô đon ấy gần như đánh gục mình hoàn toàn.
Có ai trong cuộc đời này cho mình có thể chia sẻ những điều ấy ?
Cái mà ta cần là gì, tình yêu, cái mà thiêng liêng nhất cũng đã bó tay,
Cảm giác muốn trốn chạy luôn ám ảnh bởi mang nặng nỗi cô đơn ấy với một tương lai mịt mờ cùng bao bất trắc, thì có còn chi là vui thú cuộ c đời !
Trái tim chật vật đập những nhịp nặng nề mỗi sáng trưa chiều tối. Làm sao mình chịu đựng nỗi.
Cảm giác ngọn dao ấy đâm thẳng vào tim, mình thật lòng ước mong không có bất kỳ ai trên cuộc đời này trải qua cái cảm giác đó !
Môi vẫn cười, mặt vẫn rạng rỡ, mình luôn ngưỡng mộ mình quá đỗi cho khả năng che dấu niềm đau, nhưng mình sẽ chịu đựng bao lâu nữa. Mình rất muốn đầu hàng bởi chịu đựng cuộc sống ngày đối với mình gần như là quá sức.
Mình chưa từng chịu những cảm giác như vậy, mình mong rằng đó đã là tận cùng để mình còn có thể ước mong rằng thời gian này sẽ qua, rằng mình sẽ chịu đựng nổi.
Mình sẽ không thay đổi con nguời của mình, dù bản ngã ấy làm mình khốn khổ.
Chỉ có một niềm vui được dâng hiến là còn giữ mình tồn tại. Dâng hiến cho những người mình yêu thương và chỉ có thế.
Mong mình sẽ có thêm sức lực để qua nốt đoạn đường chông gai này.
Mình là một người dũng cảm và đầy nghị lực, không gì có thể đánh gục mình , trừ phi mình bỏ cuộc. Trừ phi mình bỏ cuộc !
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