Epiphany

I am only back to this blog for over a year.
Time flies!
The Greeting season of 2017 is coming closed. We have to say goodbye with the year soon!

2017, I made my dream come true, I did many things I wanted to do, nearly all of them!
Can I consider 2017 as a successful year?

Yeah, but why am I not happy? Even worse...
There are sorrows can't be shown.
Nevertheless there are sufferings have to being buried deeply. Too much painful to live with.

Recently I have an epiphany it is not easy to forsake a relationship. Somehow it becomes unbearable distress. When a relationship turned sour, you don't want it anymore. It caused unstop annoyance, stress, even anguish. One day you feel that's too much, that's enough, then you walk out... You walked away in disgust.
But things is not stopped there. The uneasiness and bitterness clutch you for longs.

I also realize that unshareable grief is too heavy to stand. You can't tell, can't mention to anyone.

Anyhow that's life. I have to claim myself for making that serious mistake.
It was wrong from beginning.

Nothing left but disgust...