What is going wrong?

Another strange day to me!

I wanted, I made and now I am till not happy with what I have now!

Alone, running away from the current situation, want to be free from all headache matters and yet I am not happy! Everything is till there, when I am separated from such things, it seems worse with a clear picture. That is much clearer.

Then, what can I do next?

I lost the young guy I love, but I thought I did not love him that much. I think I can 't bear the separation for ever. But I am wrong, I missed him badly. I want to see his face, his laugh, whenever I pass a place I have been there with him, I miss him too much. Am I wrong to let him go out of my loving arms?

I fight lonely in this life, no one for me to lean on, I have to go my way, cry for and encourage myself , I have to face with my sadness, loneliness and every difficulties. Am I very demanding to persons besides me? I do not know, I feel this life is too heavy for me!

Can I leave things there and run away?
I have just tried and found that I run nowhere, just like ostrich hiding his head in sand.
Just isolate myself in more pain and tired!

I know the feeling too bad now and keep hoping that tomorrow will be better.

Hope I can pass this time quickly.

How many B day wishes to you, could you count?

Repost on BYJ.


Very Dear Yong Joon!

Today is a special day not only to you but also to all your sisters.
We celebrate the day with you in many ways, do very nice and cute electronic gifts for you, share all sweet memories having with you together, or just silently light a candle and wish all the best in this life to you!

All say the same thing, Happy Birthday to You!
And not for only today, if these wishes work, they will bless you for your whole life since they all come from hearts of persons loving you too much!

Dear Yong Joon sisters, as game shows they usually ask how many person join the game or attending this game, could we ask something like .... how many people giving BYJ a B day wish today? Can we guess ?

Can you guess YJ ??
So,...You must be the happiest person today, Yong Joon! Enjoy your day !
Good rest and come to your new projects with your best strength! We are all at your back.

For a very special day to Yong Joon and to us!

With love!

Dear YJ,

The photo is too cute! I love your closing your eyes, like in dreams! Dream on your B day!

Or, like in good rest! Take rest in your life, enjoy it!

You are in my heart, but I never wish to see you in real life. It hardly happens and I will not happy just seeing you from far distance so I rather imagine what and how I could do if I were with you. More sweet, more real to me!

Love you

Hello, Family. This is Bae Yong Joon

I re post the letter from BYJ. This is the translation from Suehan. Thanks Suehan very much to make us keep closer with YJ. Don't get angry for re posting.
You can click here to see the full page at BYJ with all comments from YJ's sisters (Talk box - No 51347).

Original in Korean : Bae Yong Joon/ KOB
Translated into English : Suehan


Wow!! I think it’s the first time I have seen his posting since I became his fan in Jan of 2005.
He posted two letters on #51346 and #51347. But I believe he did that because he couldn’t post his letter one time. (You’ll know the reason from his post scrip of the end of 2nd posting.)

So I translated the two postings into one.
Suehan


Hello, Family. This is Bae Yong Joon.

Today’s weather isn’t so good, but there was a refreshing breeze for us all. On the other hand, I am thinking that there will be a change in the weather with the rain showers and wind that have come. The rate that time is flying by makes me feel like I’m in a rush to get everything done. Because there is so much I have planned in my head while I have been taking breaks. That is why I am taking the time to first write to you all and send this letter to the Family.

First of all, I am sorry to have made you all worry. The surgery went well without any problems. After getting good results from staying in the hospital for a couple of days, I am already recovering quickly enough to be in front of the computer to write this letter to you all. I would like to give thanks to all of you for your support, and promise to not make you all worry like this again in the future. You must all stay healthy and well, too.

Out of all the things that I hope to do in the future, there is one idea that I would like to discuss with all of you.

A while ago, I mentioned that I wanted to write a book to introduce Korea. Do you all remember that? Although I love photographs, I have also had this desire to present the beauty(s) of Korea for a long time.

Therefore, from the love and support from the Asian family, I have seen the interest many families have shown about Korea. And everyone has made visits to the country, too. At some point I started to regret that you have to come and visit the shooting site, which due to little information were limited to see only that part of Korea.
And even from those it was not enough for you to see all of Korea during your trip, making you have to come back again later. I wanted to catch the attention of you all and tourists, by revealing the charm of the country that is Korea. And this is what I want to say.

“Even to those of us who have lived in Korea, the culture, history and beauty of the country have embraced and surprised us. Please use your camera to capture the beauty of every little place. This is the Korea that I was born and grew up in. It is the Korea that I have been trying to reveal through my drama and movie shootings.” Is what I am trying to say.

And that made me think how it would be if I were the first to pick up my camera and travel around the country, introducing a book filled with pictures that at least communicate some of the beauty that Korea has to offer.

But this isn’t where my thoughts and worries stop. While thinking about the route(s) of my travels would lead me, I only know of the few, famous places that I have been before. There must be places that are just as beautiful that I simply have not heard of yet… And I haven’t been able to look for help in any other useful places.
But then, the Family is what came to my thoughts! I realized that we could make this book together, not with my own efforts.

What do you think? Are there any places you can tell me about?

Please let me know of all the places that you all have traveled throughout Korea. Writing, pictures, any information you can give me is fine. Even a small table in a shabby, country restaurant will be accepted too. Mountains you do not know the names of that you have seen in the background while parking your car in the sunset are also good. Exciting stories at a famous getaway is great, too. Those who have lived their entire lives in Korea, an encounter you’ve had that made you realize your appreciation for the country is good, too.
You have anything that you want to know about Korea? That is great, too. Tell me where in Korea you’re curious about, where you want to go and visit, what you want to try and eat… whatever your heart desires to ask.

I will try my best to create a good book using all the things that you all have to contribute to me.
I hope that everyone who reads this book and is interested in Korea including our families abroad would like to stay for a longer time in Korea.

My pen and pad and camera are ready. I will start my travels as soon as I receive all of your stories. For now, email your letters to webmaster@byj.co.kr. Soon, I will create a place where I can store, and listen to, all the stories you send me.

I feel much lighter now that I have expressed the thoughts that I have had for the past few weeks to you all. Now, I will just wait excitedly for all your stories. I will definitely be studying hard.

Please always stay well and healthy.

I love you all.

At the dawn of August 19th, 2008

Sincerely,

Bae Yong Joon

P.S.
I got a small scare when the post didn’t show up all at once.
I forgot there was a limit on the length of the posting.
I hope it doesn’t make your reading difficult.

How to stay young

A friend sent me ways to keep you young longer...
I find they really nice and worth following. Enjoy!

HOW TO STAY YOUNG

1. Throw out nonessential numbers. This includes age, weight and height. Let the doctors worry about them. That is why you pay 'them.'

2. Keep only cheerful friends. The grouches pull you down.

3. Keep learning. Learn more about the computer, crafts, gardening, whatever, even ham radio. Never let the brain idle. 'An idle mind is the devil's workshop.' And the devil's name is Alzheimer's.

4. Enjoy the simple things.

5. Laugh often, long and loud. Laugh until you gasp for breath.

6. The tears happen. Endure, grieve, and move on. The only person, who is with us our entire life, is ourselves. Be ALIVE while you are alive.

7. Surround yourself with what you love , whether it's family, pets, keepsakes, music, plants, hobbies, whatever. Your home is your refuge.

8. Cherish your health: If it is good, preserve it. If it is unstable, improve it. If it is beyond what you can improve, get help.

9. Don't take guilt trips. Take a trip to the mall, even to the next county; to a foreign country but NOT to where the guilt is.

10. Tell the people you love that you love them , at every opportunity.

AND ALWAYS REMEMBER

Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away

Life is uncertainty!

Yesterday I have my hair cut and something stirred up my mind and soul!

The one taking care my hair is a hair stylist, quite famous in his entertainment industry. He is good looking and sound at his middle age and as other stylists, he always showed up to people a well performance.

I met an old man, weak, skinny and pale at his salon, the man looked like my hair stylist but much older than him, I thought, may be his elder brother.
Then later I find the old skinny pale man is him! How he could be! Just about lesser than 3 months I had not seen him, my God!

He has a serious sick related to his brain and he had 2 month treatment in hospital then recently another 1 week treatment again. Now he is in his recovering stage, but he looks like a 60 year old man with his pale, brown spots on his skin, his eyes lost his lively look although he can cut our hairs, till at his professional. He even changed my hair style and made me look better with it.

I know the case that one man just died in a day without any signals, he felt hard to breath, sent to hospital and died on the same day. But this time I am really shock to see my hair stylist and his case touch my heart. How this life is uncertainty! You try too much for your life then suddenly, something happens and everything becomes meaningless to you, then what you can do?

I must re think what we really need to this life and then just do for it. I must be happy with what I till have today since I may lose anything or everything tomorrow. I must re set my life target and re schedule my time.

LIFE.. too beautiful and too terrible! LIFE gives you signals to remind you for a happier choice you can make. Then I have my choice now, and you, what is your choice ???

When we can see you again, YJ?

Some more photos from April Snow.

The show really impressed me. Insoo's sorrow tears my heart.



You see how perfect his sweet face in the scene.



YJ, when I can see your new works?

Dear YJ, get better soon!

Repost the message on BYJ last 11 Aug, 08

I heard you had a surgery for about 2 hours, under general anesthesia to treat damaged muscles and nerves in shoulder. How are u? Are u painful? Hope that you have your close friends or your love with you during these days.


i always imagine how, what i could do if I was with you, YJ.
It should be sweet thoughts to think about.

Special in this time, you may need more caring of others, then what i could do if i was with you?

Dear YJ's sisters, I think most of us sharing the same feeling. We wish to do something for YJ, but we can not, so just imagine, if we could do...

Dear YJ, we all love you and all helpless in releasing pain from you.
So .... only can say take care and wish you get better soonest with all love from us.

With deeply love.

Very dear BYJ, Why dont you look at us?

Repost my message on BYJ on 6 Aug

Very Dear Yong Joon,
How are you ? I heard that you are back Korea... I have been waiting for your new performance long, long....

I think you are going to publish some new photos, and maybe with your new hair style.
I 've heard many sisters crying for your long hair cutting. Yes, you look sweet and very, very charming with the hairstyle. But that style is for a period of your time, your performance.

For me, your brilliancy and charm is not just because of your hair and glasses. You are gorgeous with glasses and yet I love to see you without glasses then I can see your eyes, glances.

Now I am eager to see your new hair style...

One thing, could you do for us, could you look at the camera when taking photos. With this way we can feel like you are looking at us when seeing your photos. Most of your photos are not looking to cameras, we can not catch your eyes, your glances.

Thanks for all wonderful feeling you have given to us through your works.
All the best to you.
Always love you.

How much is not too much?

How much you are expecting to your lover?
How much is just good enough to please the one but not disturb him?
How much is not too much?
I have the such questions from one of my friend.


I did answer to her that we must find the way to please ourselves.
Loving someone is not easy. We love then we become very demanding, of course just with the one, then we have high expectation. We expect the one should be, should do, understand, ... like this, like that, etc. more than other ones.
Unfortunately, the one we love is normal person, not a hero and very intelligent one. Even he /she is, he/she can not too smart to understand everything from every moment.

So how much is good? Good for feel being love and take care by the lover?

I suggest if we can, we could not expect. Let love devote to you what it can give.

You love and being love, just please yourself. Not from other, then you will be happy.

What you can do...

When you have to leave someone you love, what can you do?
I feel really sad but what we can do...

Time flies fast and things keep changing.
If you miss someone then what can you do?
If you wish to touch or calling someone who is not with you any more, what can you do?
If you want to do something for the one you love, since he is too far from you so you can not do anything but just hearing all info from him, what can you do?
If you love someone, once you think of him, you feel the love you devote to him overflow your soul and at the same time a pain sharp as knife go through your heart, then what can you do?
If you know you are loosing the one you love then what can you do?

One day you most not expected, you have to leave someone you love, what you can do...
is just comfort yourself with the thinking that even the one may not be with you anymore, but the love till with you to the day you wish to.

By this way, LOVE is with you, forever... not cultivated by anyone influence.

on the days for Di's leaving.